Having a Mini Revelation

Hey all,

In my previous blog post, I referenced that I’d had a (sorta) miniature and personal revelation, which I just want to share. If you haven’t read the post already, I’ll link it at the end!

So here’s the story; I’d spent my day at school and the weather was super nice outside for April and so asked a group of friends if they fancied going out for a quick walk or “adventure” as I tend to call them, to enjoy the nice day. Nobody wanted to – mostly because we only had 25 minutes left of our lunch break.

Then that afternoon, I was walking home on my own, I had music blasting into my ears and I was only a few minutes from home when I just started to question why I was so dependent on having others around me to have a good time. I realised that if I wanted to do something, and nobody else did, I just wouldn’t.

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Instagram – @caitlinggodfrey

I was also reflecting on how precious life is and how tragedies happen to the most unlikely of people. Also, how sometimes we are so focused on what our future is going to look like, both short and long term, that we forget to enjoy the now. A prime example of this is my life quite recently. Up until recently, I had been so focused on my future and excited about what was ahead, that I now feel as though I have wasted a lot of my time being 16. I wouldn’t go out to see many people or make an effort to talk to my friends outside of school because I was trying to get ready for going to university, moving out, making new friends and developing relationships etc. I wasn’t enjoying being a teenager and having a little more freedom and also having very little responsibility.

And in my head I started to think this:

“I could die tomorrow in a complete tragedy, or something could happen which could stop me from living as I want to. Why am I waiting to do all the fun and exciting things I want to, simply because I can do them later? Or why am I not doing things, because nobody else  wants to do it right now? If I want to go on an ‘adventure’ I will.”

And so I do. I try to apply this to as many things as possible. For example, I mentioned that getting my ear pierced was one of these. I wanted to get it done, why did I need so many people’s approval and opinion? Why was I planning on waiting a while to get it done? I’d decided I wanted the piercing, why was I holding myself back?

And I didn’t have many answers, so I got my mum to agree, because I quite like having her support, and I got my ear pierced.

The same applies for other “adventures”. I’ve told a couple of my friends a little bit about this “revelation” as a joke, and then managed to use it to convince two friends to go on a walk with me, where I had possibly one of the most instagramable photos taken of myself, ever. It’s all about the adventure. It was a typical British ‘summer’ day (and by that I mean, a little chilly, a little breezy, but the sun was out) so I grabbed my sunglasses out of my bag and the 3 of us had pictures taken in front of a huge blossom bush, getting  a little bit cold, but we had a good time. It’s a little adventure and a memory that I hope I keep for a long time, I had a hell of a lot of fun taking photos, and having them taken. Plus, it’s always good fun to goof out a little with your friends, right?

So, there it is. My little revelation about how I’m trying to live. I want to take up every opportunity and stop waiting around for a tomorrow. It’s a sad and scary thought that tomorrow may never come, but living this way leaves very little regrets. It’s a philosophy I hope I can continue to live by.

I have a question for anyone who feels inclined to answer:

What is one thing you wish you could do more of?

I’d either say meeting up with people for coffees or exercising, I hate exercising but love feeling as though I’ve got up my heart rate and done by body some good!

 

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What No Makeup for Lent is REALLY Like – Wellbeing

 

 

 

 

Click here or on the image to read my previous blog post about how I found not wearing any makeup for 40 days!

 

 

 

 

Talk soon,

Caitlin xx

WHAT IS LENT? – TOPIC TALK

Hey, all!

So in case you live under a rock, it’s Shrove Tuesday (or, as I refer to it, “pancake Tuesday”) on the 28th of February which is really exciting and means I can stuff myself silly with sweet treats! But is also reminds me that Lent will be starting in under 24 hours.

As a Christian (that I kind of feel like you should know about me if you don’t already) Easter is a really important time for us as we believe this was when Jesus died on the cross to forgive us of our sins, and to show that He bridged the gap between Heaven and Earth. Therefore, we tend to do a lot of “celebrations,” for lack of a better word, and (especially in my annual traditions) this involves a lot of walking and a service in the centre of our town, on Good Friday. But I’ll talk about the significance of Easter closer to the time. Today, I want to discuss Lent and how it is significant and what it is supposed to represent.

What is Lent?

Lent is a time in which Christians tend to (although are not pressured to) “fast” in some way for 40 days.

It goes back to the start of Matthew 4 where Jesus is in the desert, fasting from food. He does this for 40 days and nights (a very common number in the bible, as featured in the story of Noah and the Ark).

Matthew 4:1-11 (NIV)

Jesus is Tested in the Wilderness

1 Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil.  After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, “If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread.”

Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'”

Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down. For it is written: “‘He will command his angels concerting you, and they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.'”

Jesus answered him, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.'”

Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. “All this I will give you,” he said, “if you will bow down and wordship me.”

10 Jesus said to him, “Away from me, Satan! For it is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.'”

11 Then the devil left him, and the angels came and attended him.

In this passage, we see that Jesus was in the desert and while fasting, He was tempted by the devil to worship the devil, to break His fast and turn against God.

Why did Jesus fast?

I’m stealing some of the answer to this from (www.reference.com) which says that Jesus was fasting to prepare for God’s ministry for Him (to be put to death). Despite being tempted, Jesus remained faithful to God and as verse (11) tells us, He was guarded by angels after Satan had left Him.

Many Christians often fast, (most commonly from food – but it can be anything that they feel would be difficult to give up, to try and show more devotion from God. It is to say: “I want and love God more than I want or love said ‘item’.” Very often fasting is used for reflection and to try to become closer to God, in the Christian faith.

Because of this, I try my best to give up something for lent, or sometimes “take something up” that will either be a positive thing for myself; or, strengthen my relationship with God. Before now I’ve given up chocolate (several times actually, most of which I horribly failed at), bad language and overeating/being greedy. This year I’m also planning to give something up, the idea of which really makes me nervous, but you’ll have to wait to see my next blog post to see what that is! Along with this, my plan is to take up reading the bible more and spending more time learning about God and spending time with God.

I hope you found this interesting, I really want this to be remotely beneficial for anyone reading and that you find it tells you a little bit about why lent exists and what the point of it is. Although I haven’t published my blog post about what I’m giving up and why; I’ll make sure to link it. (Incase you’re wondering or reading this before my next post goes up, it’s due to be up on Monday 27th at 16:30!)

Although I haven’t published my blog post (as of when this goes live) about what I’m giving up and why, I’ll make sure to link it on here so if you read this later, you can skip straight there!

Question: regardless of if you do something for lent or not, what might you give up this year?

I hope you enjoyed, talk soon!

Caitlin xx

WHY I’M NOT WORRYING ABOUT MY ADULT LIFE AT 16 – TOPIC TALK

Hey all!

I am such a huge worrier and I will panic over the smallest thing. Currently, the biggest two concerns I have are my A-level maths grades and getting into a university.

I complain all the time and I’d like to think I show my sense of humour through that. So for me to say “I hate maths” or “ugh I am so going to fail” is not unusual and I’m sure my friends and family are VERY sick of me saying that. But I am seriously concerned about how badly I am doing. Mostly because I have always been very proud of how I do at school. Don’t get me wrong here, I actually really enjoy learning and I’m a relatively hard worker, but I honestly cannot get my head around maths! And it isn’t that I’m not trying (but it’s cool because my teachers just keep telling me to work harder lol okay thanks for the advice) I’m currently seeing a tutor every Monday and although that is helping to a degree, it certainly isn’t taking me to where I actually need/want to be. Although I am massively thankful for all the help she’s been giving me.

Even still, I am so so so worried about how I am coping with it and although I am so close to the end of the year and taking the AS, I am DYING to drop out of the final exams after our mocks (NEXT WEEK!!!!!!)

Secondly, I’m already worried about going to university. I want to study psychology because I love the subject. (I am such a nerd when I really enjoy a subject, last year I would want to talk about history with every/anybody I could find!) I won’t lie I am so buzzed to go, but I’m realising that my unwillingness to settle for anything second-best is killing me. The grades to get into the kind of universities that I’m looking at are quite high and I can’t help but feel as though I really cannot achieve them!

(Hopefully, in 18 months I can have proved myself completely wrong!)

I really want to try to go near Birmingham, and anybody who knows me will know why this is and will probably criticise this choice, but hey, I’m not losing anything my studying there!  but the grades for psychology are AAA. I’ve really got to study hard to get that. That terrifies me. I’ve honestly looked into every university that I could think of or even considered, which then turned into an excel document of 43 universities and all the information I could find about them, in the hopes that it would magically tell me where to go. It didn’t.

But I’m realising that I really don’t need to worry. I can drop maths. I could get a U and it would not define me. Maths is hard, especially at A-Level or above, and after seeing the new GCSE spec. for maths, I am so sympathetic towards anybody sitting that. All I can think is “rather you than me”. At least I tried, at the sixth form I attend, we’re all expected to try 4 ASs and then continue with 3 A2s and take up something else that should (in theory) take up less time. My poor maths grade won’t mean anything very soon. I might just feel a little embarrassed and disappointed for a while. I know that I am intelligent, and although reminders from my friends and family are incredibly welcome, I don’t need to have outstanding A2 results to be certain that my life will be okay. I have a supportive family that I am so privileged to have.

I’m not sure if you’re reading this and you’re virtually certain that you’re going to come out of whatever is stressing you with something positive. Or if you’re like me and you know that it’ll be okay, you just want something that you don’t think will go well, to go well. Or if actually, you are extremely stressed out about because you don’t think any of it will go well.

In any of these groups just know that you will be okay and that some things are supposed to be challenging and difficult to test you. If everything were easy, then there would be nothing to set us apart. Equally, everybody has different talents. You might not be able to integrate (in which case, me neither) but you might have really good social skills, or you’re a good listener or you are good at making people laugh.

Also, I’ve made some big mistakes that really loom over me or I still feel guilty about, but I know that these things won’t determine the rest of my life. I am going to be okay despite those.

So I’m no longer going to spend my time fretting about if I’ll be okay at age 25!

You will be okay too and you will have a good life if you work hard at it and make good choices. Even if you’ve made bad choices, keep going and making good ones from here. Ultimately, you get out what you put in, in relationships, friendships, and in life.

To finish I have a bible verse that is very relevant for this:

Matthew 6:34 (NIV)

Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

That’s all for now, talk soon,

Caitlin xx